Presence & Acceptance

By On May 10, 2010 · 5 Comments · In BDSM, intimacy, life, reflections, relationships, the Emperor, the Inventor

… are the two things that I want the most right now, from a lover. Or from anyone I’m close to, actually.

This post is made up of edited excerpts of an email exchange I’ve been having with the Emperor. I’m just sharing it here because I’d like to see if anyone has an [...]

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Goddess (Valkyrie): 1/2

By On August 9, 2009 · Leave a Comment · In drunk, Erotica, frat life, Girl, journal, kinda sorta awk, Queer, relationships, the Emperor

[Press Play]

You’ve known her for more than half a year; and you’ve slept with almost everyone who you’ve seen in her immediate vicinity by now. Well, not everyone, but it feels like it. These were people who you weren’t not attracted to, but they didn’t drive you particularly crazy, [...]

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Some ruminations on roles

By On June 25, 2009 · Leave a Comment · In BDSM, bottom/object, domme/top, Erotica, Girl, journal, K, kink identity, reflections, the Emperor, the Professional, versatile/fluid

Having more experiences with different lovers, researching a bit more about BDSM on Fetlife and starting Jay Wiseman’s “SM 101″ has lead me to start thinking about my (very, very slowly) emerging BDSM identity, again. Granted, labels are only of a very basic use here; in fact I’m highly tempted to conclude that my identity [...]

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Blood

By On January 4, 2009 · 4 Comments · In angst, drunk, love, reflections, the Emperor

During the flight, I started menstruating.

Sort of ironic, if you think about it. But the same time, I was relieved. I had been thinking about you and wasn’t sure if I was ready to see you. If I wanted to see you at all. And the blood gave me an [...]

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“Body like a battleaxe”

By On December 26, 2008 · 17 Comments · In BDSM, bottom/object, cybersex, Erotica, journal, long distance, Queer, sex fantasy, the Emperor, transgender

Remember when I said that the Emperor sent me a series of hot emails that I very much wanted to post, but decided not to? Well, I think I can get around the whole consent issue by writing the imagined scenario from my point of view instead.

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Taking Stock

By On November 22, 2008 · 5 Comments · In blogging, cybersex, K, reflections, S, the Emperor, the Scientist, the Wanderer

So, this past week, I had a couple of posts that I published, and then made “protected”, and then decided not to post at all. I realized that I was getting carried away. I had forgotten one of the important “rules” concerning writing/blogging that I’ve learnt during this little sexblog fiasco: exclusion. Including every single detail can [...]

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Memories of the Emperor

By On November 8, 2008 · 3 Comments · In Erotica, intimacy, journal, Queer, relationships, sex, the Emperor

I’ve had a crush on you since practically forever. (Maybe I told you when I was drunk. I can’t remember.) But in any case, it wasn’t random when I pulled you towards me and kissed you that night.

I find it funny that your girlfriend was the one who started it all. She [...]

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A Love-letter to No-one

By On September 30, 2008 · 4 Comments · In Christopher, drunk, K, long distance, love, reflections, sexual frustration, the Actor, the Emperor

Right now, I have a beer and three cups of Hypnotic inside me (a quality mixture of vodka, cognac, and fruit punch, according to the bottle) and I am able to be honest.

My loves – I miss you. Very, very much. I miss the way you moan and cry out; I miss the way [...]

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